Yup, that is how I feel a lot of the time. I was doing a little redecorating and decided to frame out this piece I did in a multimedia workshop a couple of years ago. I wasn't that excited about it at the time, but I recently found it again and quite like it. (It doesn't reproduce well online, but you get the general idea.)

It is very different from what I normally do and I love the story that evolved as I was creating it. I feel like there are so many artists inside of me lying dormant, waiting for a wakeful nudge. I have talked about experimenting with metal, collage, ceramic studio days... there was also photography for a short while ...



I own a small fraction of what I produced. There is a visual history of my life that awaits me at my friends' and family's homes. I can map out my life by what is hanging on their walls or sitting on their shelves. I want to do it all, but more importantly I want to do it well....and well, that takes time. In my impatience I feel I have raced through a lot of media trying to find that something that I will stick with and explore. But maybe that is not as important as I think.
Design work for now is very satisfying. I have finally come up with a mental formula to help me sort out the tug of war that happens within. I am a surface designer, I am a children's illustrator, both of which I do for my job and for the love of it. But off hours, I am a curious artist who will keep exploring and playing with different media and hopefully growing. Maybe something will grab me along the way and say, "Hey, stay a while and play". That would be sweet.
I read an interview with a book artist recently and he said, "Ask your hands what it is they want to do". That is a great jumping off point. I think I might add to that, "What do your eyes want to see?" and "What makes your heart jittery?"
Last week in the NY Times there was a small piece about Ettore Sottsass, one of the founders of the Memphis Group. He said, "Many architects are very rational, but I believe we have to experience the world like children--through the senses rather than the mind. What is truly important is to have an open mind and no borders. Then you can do almost anything."